REVEALING MY WIP

Heyoo

I’d had this post sitting in my drafts unfinished for a while because I honestly didn’t know what I was doing with my novel but it’s less of a wreck now so I thought I’d share this because I mentioned this sometime last year maybe? I just can’t keep the excitement contained anymore.

I planned on writing this during Nanowrimo but life decided to slap me in the face with exams and I didn’t get to write as much as I wanted to but now that school is closed I’m FREEEEEEE to sleep every day and eat cake write!

Anyway…


🥞What was your inspiration for your novel

☽ Tumblr prompts played a MAJOR part, I’ve always wanted to write a story/novel/i don’t even know what it is at this point but finding a plot has always been something I struggled with.Majorly.

And then I found this page on Tumblr full of prompts that were free for anyone to use and I just elaborated on the prompt and added a bunch of my own stuff that I’d been wanting to use from the other times I’d attempted writing a story.* And then I just kept adding stuff until it wasn’t even remotely similar to the original prompt and now I have this self-made mess that I’m trying to wrap my head around.

I’ve been wanting to write this since…umm?? March? January? My memory has always been atrocious lol

*roughly 4 million but who’s counting

🥞Describe what your novel is about!

I haven’t actually, fully thought that through yet *laughs nervously*. I have a basic and I mean BASIC outline, and like two character names; this is very much a work in progress.

I will however, say this, and this like ALL I have so far

        • a girl who gets shipped off to another state/city … after a suicide attempt
        • a bad boy (because it wouldn’t be a good cliche story without one)
        • should i reveal more??
        • nahhhh
        • Just one more…
        • MC’s name is Cassidy

🥞What is your book’s aesthetic?

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Introduce us to each of your characters!

☽Cassidy

-17

– blunt

-Spanish

– has depression???

– protective

– (she/her)

-extroverted

☽Dakota

-18

-badboy

-loyal

-honest

– observative

-(he/his)

🥞How do you prepare to write?

Outlining really helps. I started with using Cait’s How To Outline Your Novel (Without Biting Your Own Head Off) and then made a board on the app, Trello with all the little bits and pieces I wanted in the story and then moved them around until I had a “timeline”. But the abundance of chocolate hidden around the house helps too.

🥞What are you most looking forward to about this novel?

Finishing it. Don’t get me wrong writing is fun but it’s a lot I’ve literally only written a chapters but I have never felt such a level of complete and utter exhaustion. No amount of cake could’ve prepared me for this. I’m really excited to see where writing this takes me, I’ve never written a story before and I’m Nano newbie so everything about this is new and exciting for me

🥞List 3 things about your novel’s setting.

-San Diego

-Possibly Manhattan

-I know nothing else

🥞What’s your character’s goal and who (or what) stands in the way?

Happiness.

Self sabotaging

Flynn

🥞How does your protagonist change by the end of the novel?

I still have no idea how my novel ends but by the end I want her to grow as much as I feel I have over the past few years. I want her to have the hope, I sadly lack more times than I’d care to admit. And I want her to be happy and confident and love herself flaws and all.

🥞Book themes!?

Accepting the past? Learning to move on? Death? Finding love in unexpected places?

🥞Snippets

But just one…

I guess that’s it for now. Did any of you participate in Nanowrimo?

xxxChips

Dear Charliee-Rose #2

Dear Charliee

Today I met someone, well yesterday actually.

-2018/10/17

She’s unconventionally beautiful and it’s just… I’ve never felt that kind of instant connection to someone IRL, she radiates warmth like her name is the very definition of summer, talking to her feels familiar, exciting. She’s got this gorgeous soul and you can tell she’s genuinely interested in making you feel loved and comfortable. With her it’s like free falling but you know she’ll always catch you. She speaks four languages, Turkish, Turkmen, English and Russian and I think that’s pretty cool-that she took the time to learn all that. She wants to be an English teacher someday, and that made me really happy, idk why, maybe it’s completely unrelated, but for as long as I can remember my English teachers have always been the most inspirational, creative, wonderful human beings. I had a 15 minute conversation with her, and that’s short but she changed a lot of things for me and not many people have that ability. She makes me want to be better

-a conversation with M

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I AM A BRAIN•POEM

I am a brain.

Sometimes you love me for my rational way of thinking

Or when you get an A on the math test you thought you would fail

What you don’t love is when I get in the way of your heart

Because then you know

You’re stuck on this emotional rollercoaster

And there’s no getting off ’till the end

You don’t really understand the way I work

Or why I make you think the things you think

Or why you make you do the things you do

I give you reason to think the things you think

And sometimes you mull it over and you can’t help but think

“What the…?”

But there’s a reason for my madness

My mystery

My expertise

In a field of matters you’re only just beginning

To understand

What is the labyrinth

Is it the pain you feel in life or the escape?

Is it straight and fast? Is that the way out of suffering?

I am a brain.

Complex

Pessimistic

Strange

Assiduous

Sophisticated

Opportunistic

Unrealistic

Brain.

The story behind the poem:

During a therapy session my psychologist placed numerous objects on a table in front of me and asked me to write something from the objects point of view. While writing this I wasn’t me, I was my brain and after I had written my poem, my psychologist asked if I thought this poem was related to my feelings in any way. I said no. She asked me to read it again, aloud and insert my name and personal pronouns where needed.

So I thought I would share this with you because I’ve realised that in the past few months I’ve been underestimating myself.A lot. And after reading this poem a second time I realised that even though my writing is far from perfect I am a talented writer. And writing this has made me realise that now it isn’t just something people say to be nice and it was never just something people said to be nice, it was something they genuinely believed. And now I believe it too.

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Stop stopping yourself.

xxxChips

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