MENTAL HEALTH

So I’ve haven’t written about Mental Health much and I haven’t shared my story with you guys and that is something that will happen eventually and it is a mess of a story, but right now that’s not important. This post is not about my depression/anxiety/mood disorder story, this post is about everything happening now, in the moment, in my maze of a mind.

So for those of you who don’t know I recently started boarding school, and we weren’t allowed our phones/laptops for the first few weeks of it so I apologise for my absence.

I hate it full stop

I don’t fit in. In the two brief weeks I’ve been there I’ve made some amazing friends and I’ve figured out who the fake ones are.The thing is… I’m not happy. I can’t focus in class, I don’t like the extra-murals, I don’t like the people(of course in saying this I mean some of the people, most, of the people).And the truth is, there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. I feel trapped. So trapped that I’m going to see a doctor sometime within the next few weeks for an evaluation.

I  can’t even blog at boarding school, do you realise that? Blogging is what helps with my depression, my anxiety and still when I write about something as simple as whether or not I’m A Feminist  people (my family)start the conversation about whether or not the content on this blog is too ‘mature’ for me when these are things they have a) discussed with me and b) things I will share regardless. I started this blog for me. I started it and it gave me a  space where I could voice my opinion and hear the opinions of others, I haven’t received a single rude comment since I started and obviously not all bloggers are that lucky. But the truth is when I start writing about my mental health story people are going to judge me, regardless of whether or not the responses are positive or negative, I’m being judged. It makes sense that because I’m so young and there are pictures of me on this blog that people wouldn’t want me to write about a topic that could impact my future so ‘majorly’.

I am not a genius so I can’t say that I won’t regret writing about my mental health story 20 years from now, but I don’t think I will and writing about my story and sharing it with other people is something I need to do.For myself. And it is really, really important to me that people understand that what they are going through, isn’t something they are going through alone.

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I feel in volumes

-Adria T Petrov

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GIRLBOSS PLAYLIST 2018|GRL POWER

Heyyy

So in case you haven’t noticed yet I luurrvvee music. Some of the songs on this playlist are quite old but that’s never stopped me from dancing wildly to them, lol, who even am I? Anyway without further ado:

GIRLBOSS PLAYLIST 2018

  • National Anthem-Lana Del Rey
  • You Don’t Own Me-Grace
  • Woman- Kesha
  • Say It To My Face-Madison Beer
  • New Rules- Dua Lipa
  • Don’t Play- Halsey
  • Do My Thang-Miley Cyrus
  • Feelings- Hayley Kiyoko
  • O.D.D- Hey Violet
  • Work- Iggy Azalea
  • Secret(Shh)- Charli XCX (Honestly not sure if this song fits the theme but it makes me feel badass so we’re putting it here anyway)
  • Needed Me- Rihanna
  • Dead- Madison Beer
  • Nasty Gal- Betty Davis
  • Hard Out Here- Lily Allen
  • You Already Know-Fergie
  • Sorry Not Sorry-Demi Lovato
  • BO$$-Fifth Harmony
  • Pretty Girls-Britney Spears
  • Bad Girls-M.I.A
  • Ready For It-Taylor Swift
  • Blow-Kesha
  • Potential Breakup Song-Aly and AJ
  • My Rules-Jadagrace

Music is what feelings sound like

xxxChips

Reflection|2017 Highlights

Wow.This is it, I guess.In a few hours 2017 will officially be over.I did of a lot of things this year that were really gutsy and I honestly feel like I need to reflect on that because this was one of the best and worst years of my life.

HIGHLIGHTS

I asked my crush to go to the Spring Dance with me!

I watched a movie with him and we hung out for like the whole day!!!

I was a monitor!

I survived math!!!And NS!!I friggen got an 87% average in Afrikaans!!

I started a blog!

CLAIRE!!!!

I got a laptop!I got and iPhone!

I bought myself a camera!Also I solemnly promise to deliver ‘lit’ photos in all my posts next year

The Six!

CHEESCAKE!!!!! Cake is bae people,cake is bae.

I fell in love with Factorie

Came up with the stupid idea to do Youtube and announce it on my blog.

Started writing a book!

-Also if any of you like,write stories please please please hit me up on Twitter, because I would really love to hear some feedback on some of what I’ve written so far.And also I want a writing buddy!

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I BOUGHT A CANDLE!! Okay I realise, how sad I’m starting to sound but I like candles and I never lit one myself until this year so I’m allowed to be happy

I went through this year with no regrets!

-I laughed about everything!I got a flipping 56 in a test and I laughed at myself and I moved the hell on and I’m hella proud of myself  for that!

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-My best friend in the whole entire world, we met this year.

There are many more things I could point out about this year. But before I go, I just want to say thank you to everyone who has ever taken the time to read one of my blog posts or like them or comment on them. Blogging has been my escape from stress and all the drama people like throwing my way, uhm, I just wanted to say that I love you all so much and you guys deserve the world so never settle for anything less than you deserve.yeah, I think that’s about it for now.

If you have any blog posts that you would like me to do, or do more of let me know.

Anyway, love you

xxxChips

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Everything I’m Saying Goodbye To At The End Of 2017

Hey everyone

I hope you’re all having an amazing day

So today’s post is about being happy and how you can make 2018 a happier year for you. These are a few things that I’m saying bye to because I want to be a happier person, and I think that hearing this and thinking about how it relates to you might help you aswell.

-Forget expectations

I’ve spent the past two years listening. Listening to people go on and on about how I’m too ‘unladylike’; listening to people say untrue things about me and judging me.Nobody has ever been afraid to share their opinions about me, please don’t pity me because I really don’t care about what they think😂The hardest thing about growing up is that you’re supposed to figure out who you are. It’s hard enough with social media but even harder when everyone wants to share their own peanut gallery of thoughts about your life.Tbh I’ve never cared about expectations so why would I start now?

-Friends

Recently I said bye to one of my best friends.And no he isn’t dead.We’ve been friends for roughly two years now.We told each other everything, he was the first person to message me after a panic attack and make sure I was okay and the only person I wanted to rant about Shooter with.He was the first guy I genuinely cared about.When we decided it was better if weren’t friend a anymore it kinda broke me.Our friendship had been and always will be one of the best thing that ever happened to me and even though I wasn’t ready to say goodbye.It was time. I still miss him. I mean if you were trying not to have a panic attack while listening to Marvin’s Room you’d understand that better.What I’m trying to remember through all of this is that even though I’ve had to say goodbye to friends I love, true friendships will always withstand time and distance.

As for the fake ones? I handled them a loooong time ago.

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-Stop Holding On To The Past

It’s never easy to let go of the past because it’s what makes you you.You need to understand that whatever happened, whatever memory you’re trying to hold on to, is always gonna be there. Holding on to the past is only stopping you from living in the moment, from creating more amazing memories that you’re gonna look back on and smile about.
Goodbye past, I’ll be sure to visit soon.

-Comparison

You will always live in someone’s shadow if you constantly compare yourself to others. You are your own person. What good will pointing out how Sarah has longer, better looking eyelashes and higher cheekbones do?The first step to getting rid of comparison in your life is self-acceptance.Once you’re more than comfortable in your own skin you can truly start living the girl boss life you want for yourself.
Goodbye comparison you sure weren’t fun and you sure as hell won’t be missed.

-Fearing judgement

Fear can prevent you doing a lot of amazing things. In You Are A Badass, Jen refers to fear as the Big Snooze or BS for short.She’s completely right, fear is pressing the snooze button on all your dreams, It’s stopping you from achieving everything you have ever wanted to achieve.So I’m gonna challenge you to challenge one of your fears in 2018, do something you’ve never done before because you were scared.

 

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“And so together they built a life they loved”
xxxChips

 

Instagram, Seventeen Wishes And Blogmas

Hey everyone💕

So recently, I decided to make an Instagram for Seventeen Wishes.

SEVENTEENWISHESXX

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If I’m not already following you, don’t forget to link your account in the comment section below😊

In other news:I’m 9 days behind with Blogmas!

How has to your week been so far??Any plans for December?

Have a great day🌻

xxxChips

WOULD YOU RATHER|CHRISTMAS EDITION

Blogmas Day 1:

We’re starting off Blogmas with….

WOULD.YOU.RATHER.

But, like, Christmas edition. You can leave your answers below if you wanna share with the fam, but, like, yeah: Let’s get started!

Damn, just when I thought I had the intro thing nailed.

Would you rather…

SIT ON SANTA’S LAP FOR AN HOUR

OR

CHUG A GALLON OF EGGNOG AT ONCE

-Well… I’ve never actually tasted eggnog and I think I would kind of hate myself for chugging something I found gross but with the Santa’s lap for an hour thing, I get bored, really quickly. And kicking Santa wouldn’t exactly put me on the nice list so, I’m gonna have to go with Eggnog!

 

CHRISTMAS TREES FEEL PAIN WHEN YOU CUT THEM DOWN AND WATCH THEM CRY

OR

HAVE CHRISTMAS COOKIES FEEL PAIN WHEN YOU BITE INTO THEM AND HAVE TO LISTEN TO THEM SCREAM

-I actually find this one really funny because today, right before my mum left for her baking class I asked her to bring me some gingerbread men and women and they are absolutely DELICIOUS! With the tree thing, I’m a vegetarian because of my love for the environment and I hate the idea (and yes, I know it sounds stupid) of trees being in pain. Sooo, this is a hard one but I’m going with the cookies.

 

PERMANENT SANTA BEARD 

OR

PERMANENT REINDEER ANTLERS

-ANTLERS ALL THE WAY! Do you people have any idea how itchy, a beard must be! Let alone a beard, that full and luscious and long. I don’t do beards, soz.  

 

HAVE TO LOUDLY SING THE CHORUS OF “JINGLE BELLS” EVERY TIME YOU WALK INTO A ROOM FOR A WEEK

OR

HAVE TO WEAR A SANTA SUIT FOR A WEEK

-The song thing is a bit like the Star Wars thing for me, like if I could have that song I’d be down for dat! 

REACH INTO YOUR STOCKING AND FIND A DEAD MOUSE

OR

REACH INTO YOUR STOCKING A FIND A LIVE MOUSE

-Dudeee, I would rather reach in and find sweets, thank, you, very, much!

 

HAVE TINSEL FOR HAIR

OR

HAVE CHRISTMAS ORNAMENTS FOR FINGERS

TINSEL!!!It’s so much fun to play with,plus I could wack people in the face…

 

ONLY BE ALLOWED TO EAT CANDY CANES FOR TWO DAYS 

OR

ONLY BE ALLOWED TO EAT FUITCAKE FOR TWO DAYS

-Tbh, I hate both of them but if I had to choose I would go with the candy canes because you can throw them at people and it won’t knock them out. Hehehe

 

HAVE A NOSE LIKE RUDOLPH’S

OR

EARS LIKE AN ELF

-Guyysss who wouldn’t want a cute little red nose.

STAR IN HOME ALONE

OR

THE POLAR EXPRESS

-UHH… DUH-Home Alone. I know it sounds weird, lol, most things I say sound weird, but the thought of a bunch of thieves in my house with me playing tricks on them kinda appeals to me…

As always…

xxxChips

Dear Santa, I can explain…

13 STRUGGLES ONLY TEENS UNDERSTAND

Okay, so maybe not just teens…

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1. THE SUCK-UP

We all had/have that one person in our class, who knows “everything” and is also the only person of relevance in a class of 31.

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2.WHEN YOU REALISE THERE’S AN ESSAY DUE TOMORROW

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3. THE. INTERNET.

Do you have any idea, how hard it is to study when there are about a gazillion distractions on the internet!? This is why procrastination is a thing 😂😂

4.MOOD SWINGS

Am I happy?Am I sad? I don’t know? Do I want pizza?

5.MEAN GIRLS

Because no matter where you live… trust me you will find one.or two.or a thousand.

6.TALKING TO YOUR CRUSH

DUDESSS, THE STRUGGLE!!DO THEY LIKE YOU?DO THEY NOT LIKE YOU? ARE YOU DATING?ARE YOU NOT DATING? AAARRGGH, I GIVE UP!

7.FRIENDS WHO SHARE YOUR EMBARRASSING SNAPCHATS

Now the entire world knows what I look like at 6am on a Monday morning 😄😄

8.PIMPLES

I. DO.NOT.NEED.TO.SAY.ANYTHING.MORE.

9.BEING HUNGRY 24/7

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10.PARENTS WHO DON’T KNOCK. LIKE. EVER.

Like, no, don’t mind me… What’s the point of a door if you’re just gonna barge sorry, walk in?😒😒😒😒

11.Feelings.So.Many.Feelings

Like, anyone who knows, me, like personally, knows I’m a hot mess.

12.School starts way too early

Do. Not. Be. Disturbing.Me. At. 7am.You.Will.Die.

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13.Shattering your !NEW! phone

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Guyss this killedddd me

Which one did you relate to the most? Have you been having an amazing week?❤Should peanut butter and oreos be a thing!!? I’m also 3 away from 400 followers on my Insta😱😱😱

I’m just a girl,standing in front of a salad asking it to be a donut😂❤

xxxChips🍉

BLOGGER RECOGNITION AWARD

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THIS IS MY SECOND NOMINATION FOR SOMETHING!!! And I was nominated by a friend best friend of mine Lena and I love her so much and she’s super funny and she gets my weirdness and I love her!And I’ve said that twice, so I’ll say this now: Her blog is PHENOMENAL and you NEED to follow her!

The Rules:

  • Write a post to show your award
  • Give a brief story of how your blog started
  • Give two pieces of ideas to new blogger
  • Thank whoever nominated you and provide a link to their blog
  • Select fifteen or fewer other bloggers you want to give this award to

HOW SEVENTEEN WISHES STARTED:

SO, because I’m lazy I’m just gonna leave a link to the post:Genesis//The Story Behind Seventeen Wishes. And then I’m going to write a short sentence for everyone who’s too lazy to click the link.

I was bored, I had an idea, BOOM!

MY ADVICE FOR NEW BLOGGERS

1.You’re weird. Keep doing that.

Be yourself. Just be youself.

The people will learn to deal with the weirdness after a while.*winky face+laughing emoji)

2.Keep learning

I had absolutely no clue what I was doing when I started blogging, I DIDN’T EVEN KNOW HOW TO ADD PICTURES TO THE POSTS! But I learnt, and I learnt about Canva, and blogging graphics, and how it’s important to add tags to your posts so they’re easy for people to find. And I still learn everyday, whether it’s on Youtube or on TV or when my friends tell me the drama I’ve missed:I learn.

MY  FABULOUS NOMINEES:

-Jenny In Neverland

-Respirare

-Hannah

BibleBloggerGirl

 

I’m back….

And I have a really important question about food:

PEANUT BUTTER AND OREOS. THOUGHTS??

xxxChips

You have to be odd to be number one

-Dr Seuss

END OF YEAR GOALS+MOTIVATION

The year is ending.

It’s sorta bittersweet coz I start high school next year. And you know what that means:leaving friends, friendships ending, saying good riddance to teachers I didn’t like, making new friends, one year of boarding school, change. And all the other stuff that comes with starting high school.

But I figure, it ain’t over yet. There’s still a bunch of crazy stuff I wanna do with my friends and I’m still setting goals so, today I’m sharing my goals with you!

Okay, so first I want to share my long term goal with you:

LONG TERM GOAL:

DREAM JOB: MENTAL HEALTH SPECIALIST

Okay, so I’m the typical teen who has no idea what they want to do with their life 99.9% of the time. Recently tho, I randomly decided that this was something I wanted to do when I grow up (also is weird that I used past and future tense in that sentence).

Anyway, I was researching the subjects you need to do well in, if that’s what you wanna do and pretty much every single subject I hate and suck at(btw)  was on the list so I gotta up my game!

Legit, that is my only motivation for math.

THE MOTIVATION

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OTHER GOALS

SCHOOL RELATED:

  • 90% IN AT LEAST ONE EXAM

  • +70% IN MATH JUST SO I CAN WIPE THE SMILE OFF…. FACE

  • +80 IN NS

  • +2 A’S

  • STAY MOTIVATED THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE EXAM SEASON

 

NON-SCHOOL RELATED

  • Sleep
  • Sleep
  • Sleep
  • Be more active on social media
  • 400 followers on Insta(6 away)
  • BLOGMAS BABBAYYY!!!
  • Start a Youtube Channel
  • Finish my journal
  • Make more blogger friends

Oh darling,

It’s true

Beautiful things 

Have dents and scratches too

xxxChips

ps:Photo by Andrew Peloso on Unsplash

DAH-LING THIS ONE’S FOR YOU!!!

THIS ONE’S FOR YOU HOTDOG😂❤❤❤

It’s not your birthday but we’re celebrating!!!

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This is a speech I did a while back in Afrikaans, about my best friend Victoria. I love her to bits and she means the world to me, so I wanted to share this speech with you because 1) it’s probably the best speech I’ve ever written and 2) I got a really great mark on this and I really wanted this speech to be perfect so that made me super happy!!!

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“SO this was supposed to be a speech about Conor McGregor, but there’s someone really special to me who deserves it more! Victoria Rosilan West-Russel is the most inspirational person I know. She has always been with me no matter how horrible I’ve felt.She’s the person I can call at 2am when I’m crying and the goofball who takes Snapchats of me when I’m eating candy. We talk about everything:church, food, boys, books,boys. She always sees the best in people and she’s every bit as crazy as me.She’s gonna be a world famous author,and she doesn’t even know it yet.She honestly is the most incredible person I know and I love her to bits. She’s funny and she’s kind and she’s worth so much more than she thinks she is. She deserves the world, and all the stars and all the galaxies, she deserves infinite love and friends who truly, truly know her worth.

She is my best friend and I love her.”❤

Please don’t ever forget this, I know you’ve heard this speech and so has my entire class and my Afrikaans teacher but the internet deserves to see it too 😂❤ AND I LOVE YOU!!!!!

xxxChips