Lately I’ve Been Thinking…

Okay so recently I was reading this post by Alexandra Jane. And this was a very eye-opening post for me because I related to a lot of the things she talked about. I started Seventeen Wishes because I wanted to meet new people,I wanted to share my thoughts and opinions and have people share their thoughts and feeling with me:I wanted people to interact with.

Lately there’s been something off about Seventeen Wishes and tbh, I hate it.2018 is a new year, another chance for me to redefine what I want for this blog and for me,because this blog is a part of me as much as anything else in my life.


I want to follow people who’s posts I love reading.When I was starting this blog I followed everyone who followed me back regardless of whether or not I liked their content,because I genuinely thought it was just being nice.I’m starting to understand that I would much rather follow people whose posts I like and give them amazing feedback because I mean it.I don’t feel obligated to follow people because they follow me anymore, I spent the day unfollowing a few people because:they deserve better.They deserves followers who engage with them,love their content,smile with them,follow their journey.With the number of people I was following before I couldn’t do that.It was stressful.Now I can, and knowing that despite the fact I had to leave some bloggers on their journey temporarily I still hope for the best for them makes me feel better.


I want to post things you guys actually want to read😂Don’t get me wrong this blog is most definitely for me but I also wanna have stuff that actually interests you😂

You guys really seem to like the posts where I talk about feminism which leads to me rambling about being vegetarian😂But at the end of the day as long as it’s something I’m not clueless about *coughs and mutters makeup*


I want to learn how to take hella cute photos😂I currently have the iPhone 6 and the camera quality on here is amazing which is why I’m gonna try my best to learn more about photography so I can produce better quality photos for you guys😊Like if you guys follow Monika from Destination Humanity you know exactly what I’m talking about when I mean great photos😂SHE SLAYSS MY LIFE😂❤️❤️❤️❤️


I want a theme.A theme that won’t change for a very very long time. I’ve changed my name and my themes several times and even though I’m happy with my blog name☺️I can’t help feeling like my theme is too young and child like but still somewhat perfect for me😂Like, I want a more mature look because despite my savagery(😂😂) I am quite mature for my age but the savage side of me…she needs the childish vibes you know😂😉Any suggestions??


I would also like to follow more bloggers on Instagram and Twitter and Pinterest❤️❤️😂There’s mine,if you’re interested💛

And lastly,even though I’m not entirely sure how:I want to help out new bloggers.I know how scary it can be starting a new blog but for me it was really exciting.Getting 5 likes when I was starting out made me feel INCREDIBLE so I wanna help out new bloggers and maybe that can be my way of giving back to the blogosphere??

Any advice???Any tips,comments or thoughts?Let me know❤️❤️

Come get lost with me

xxxChips💙

.Stress

I’m rarely speechless so this is kinda rare for me. First of all I want to say sorry. Maybe to you but maybe more to me because I can’t be bothered. To write or do homework or study for exams that will either be the reason I get a distinction or fail and have to repeat this year.

“I had a panic attack” but those happen often enough so I won’t go into details, I started drawing this really amazing picture in art and came to the realisation that I might fail History. A lot has happened and I’m tired.I’m one link away from posting a blog post for you and I can’t be bothered anymore and I’m sorry, so sorry.Do you ever feel extremely overwhelmed and have absolutely no idea why, because it’s nothing…but it’s everything. Well that’s how I feel at the moment exams are in a few weeks so I won’t be uploading for a while but I promise that after exams I have 23 pre-written posts just waiting to be published (and hey, maybe I could do a post a day!)

So for now tired me has a lot to say but I can’t right now because I will pass. I will pass if it kills me to do so and I end up studying till 2 am, have a permanent writer’s cramp and am stressed out of my mind. I’m realising that this badass thing isn’t easy, but then again, I never wanted it to be.

Quote on mental health: Just because you are struggling doesn’t mean you’re falling. www.HealthyPlace.com

xxxChips

Confusion

Heyy guys,

Wow. This is actually kinda hard to type. It’s just…

So yesterday I was up watching Shooter till like around 11 and then I went to bed and I woke up at like 8ish(which is actually really late for me). I don’t wanna say I woke up in a bad mood but I wasn’t exactly in a good one either, so let’s just call this mood GYST mode coz I was feeling really productive and I wrote my to-do list and I studied made study notes for math and NS(science)and I was just having a great day! I honestly don’t even know why I’m in such a bad mood because I just bought another book, ‘Milk and Honey’ and I’ve been dying to read it ever since I first heard about it! I like, just got home and I watched a few Youtube videos and I was just like ‘Okay, time to do schoolwork’. And I like couldn’t if you get what I mean. The school term is pretty much over which means we’re pretty much done with the third term’s work but we’ve started term 4’s work because it’s a short and busy term coz of exams (we write 13 btw). I just feel so stressed, and I don’t even know why.And I honestly just want to cry, but I’m soo tired of crying and feeling sad . And uhhm… I’m kinda worried my term mark because I know I didn’t do well, and it’s so frustrating!!!Like I was soo angry at myself when I got my report back at the end of term 2 and I promised myself I would work harder, and I did and I tried hard, but it’s all just too much.Like tests and projects and homework and blogging and me wanting to start a Youtube channel, and I really don’t want to start moaning and crying about what’s going on but I just feel so stressed. And it’s like I can’t even think straight anymore. I just want it to stop. Like, where is the big pause button I need??? Like at what point… at what point does it all just stop!So what I said I would do, and this is going back to the schoolwork side of things is like catch up because I feel like I’m falling behind and I like was in 3  4subjects:

Math

Tech

NS

and Afr(Afrikaans)

So I borrowed my friends’ books and I got some textbooks from my teachers(they generally keep them coz our parents complain about the weight of our bags). But yeah I caught up and honestly, I know it’ll be worth it, not just like with exams coming up but like…I was awake till one and I don’t see the results. And now I’m crying again even though I said I wouldn’t but it really, it really and truly does suck.To sit at a desk till one working hard and catching up, failing a test and then sitting in class feeling so dumb for not understanding the work and begging myself not to cry in front of my class. And with Afrikaans, I work hard, and we get given tests and I don’t understand a single thing anymore.

I just feel so dumb.

And I’m sorry if this wasn’t the post you were expecting but I really needed to get this off my chest. And I didn’t know I felt all this stuff till I wrote it down so I’m kinda glad I did but I just want you to know that it’s okay to have flaws, it’s okay to be real with people. You don’t have to act around people, and if you have stuff going on talk to someone coz internalizing your feelings isn’t going to get you anywhere. It’s not going to help you.It’s going to tear you apart mentally and you won’t even understand why.

Uhm. I just want to say that whatever you’re going through, it’s going to be okay.

TODAY’S SONG:Orlando-XxxTentacion

I love you guys

-Chips