REVEALING MY WIP

Heyoo

I’d had this post sitting in my drafts unfinished for a while because I honestly didn’t know what I was doing with my novel but it’s less of a wreck now so I thought I’d share this because I mentioned this sometime last year maybe? I just can’t keep the excitement contained anymore.

I planned on writing this during Nanowrimo but life decided to slap me in the face with exams and I didn’t get to write as much as I wanted to but now that school is closed I’m FREEEEEEE to sleep every day and eat cake write!

Anyway…


🥞What was your inspiration for your novel

☽ Tumblr prompts played a MAJOR part, I’ve always wanted to write a story/novel/i don’t even know what it is at this point but finding a plot has always been something I struggled with.Majorly.

And then I found this page on Tumblr full of prompts that were free for anyone to use and I just elaborated on the prompt and added a bunch of my own stuff that I’d been wanting to use from the other times I’d attempted writing a story.* And then I just kept adding stuff until it wasn’t even remotely similar to the original prompt and now I have this self-made mess that I’m trying to wrap my head around.

I’ve been wanting to write this since…umm?? March? January? My memory has always been atrocious lol

*roughly 4 million but who’s counting

🥞Describe what your novel is about!

I haven’t actually, fully thought that through yet *laughs nervously*. I have a basic and I mean BASIC outline, and like two character names; this is very much a work in progress.

I will however, say this, and this like ALL I have so far

        • a girl who gets shipped off to another state/city … after a suicide attempt
        • a bad boy (because it wouldn’t be a good cliche story without one)
        • should i reveal more??
        • nahhhh
        • Just one more…
        • MC’s name is Cassidy

🥞What is your book’s aesthetic?

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Introduce us to each of your characters!

☽Cassidy

-17

– blunt

-Spanish

– has depression???

– protective

– (she/her)

-extroverted

☽Dakota

-18

-badboy

-loyal

-honest

– observative

-(he/his)

🥞How do you prepare to write?

Outlining really helps. I started with using Cait’s How To Outline Your Novel (Without Biting Your Own Head Off) and then made a board on the app, Trello with all the little bits and pieces I wanted in the story and then moved them around until I had a “timeline”. But the abundance of chocolate hidden around the house helps too.

🥞What are you most looking forward to about this novel?

Finishing it. Don’t get me wrong writing is fun but it’s a lot I’ve literally only written a chapters but I have never felt such a level of complete and utter exhaustion. No amount of cake could’ve prepared me for this. I’m really excited to see where writing this takes me, I’ve never written a story before and I’m Nano newbie so everything about this is new and exciting for me

🥞List 3 things about your novel’s setting.

-San Diego

-Possibly Manhattan

-I know nothing else

🥞What’s your character’s goal and who (or what) stands in the way?

Happiness.

Self sabotaging

Flynn

🥞How does your protagonist change by the end of the novel?

I still have no idea how my novel ends but by the end I want her to grow as much as I feel I have over the past few years. I want her to have the hope, I sadly lack more times than I’d care to admit. And I want her to be happy and confident and love herself flaws and all.

🥞Book themes!?

Accepting the past? Learning to move on? Death? Finding love in unexpected places?

🥞Snippets

But just one…

I guess that’s it for now. Did any of you participate in Nanowrimo?

xxxChips

my 2019 goals|blogmas 2018

It wouldn’t take a genius to figure out that his year hadn’t gone the way I wanted it to. For the longest time I stopped trying, I just…didn’t see the point in anything.

Starting the year off that way, I feel, was the reason the rest of the year more or less continued to be filled with a lot of sadness and more-than-occasional self loathing. But I can’t pretend the year was all that horrible. I made new friends, stayed in touch with a few of my old ones, watched my best friend’s dream of writing a series come true and had the honor of having my name be in the dedication. I travelled, ate a corn dog for the first time, hit a major blogging goal of mine and opened up more on here.

There have been high highs and incredibly low lows but overall I’m not as happy as I want to be. And if there’s one thing I’ve learned it’s that sometimes happiness is a decision. There are bad days, that’s normal, but the only way you get past that is by actively trying to create some sort of change,and that’s exactly what I’m trying to do.

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a list of things i will achieve in 2019

Listen to new music

Music has always had a major impact on me. Recently, my sister and I were having a conversation about mental health and our lives and one of the things that came up was how changing the music she listened to impacted her happiness. To summarize what she said it was something along the lines of ‘it’s comforting to listen to ‘sad’ music but at the end of the day nothing changes, it’s just you listening to the same music and you’re just replaying the same sad events over and over again for months’ and that made perfect sense to me.

In 2019, I intend to say goodbye to some of the songs I used to listen to, in hopes that if I stop replaying the past I can make a future for myself that makes my heart happy.

Join a sports team

One of my major goals for 2019 is to get my health at a good place. I spent a bunch of time in and out of hospital being treated for anemia and it was the most frustrating thing ever. Mainly because I was too weak to do a lot of things. I stopped doing sport at the beginning of April, as some of you may know I ended up in a mental health facility or to put it bluntly, rehab. For some reason I just haven’t been able to get back into being active again. I stopped exercising completely, which is why I figure the best way to start is at full speed.

Friday 6PM

If you haven’t already seen my post about this super exciting, super special, super important blogging series I’m starting in 2019, you should.

I just…

I want to give this my all. I want to make myself proud, and make you proud, and start a conversation, and help people, maybe even be part of the reason they decid

Invest in my future

Save. Save. Save.

Learn Russian

I think I’ve said this before, nope, I definitely have but I’ve wanted to go to Russia since I was 3 years old. That hasn’t changed. In fact, I probably want to go more now, than I ever have before. I’ve been learning Russian for the past few months but in between school and life, I’ve completely fallen off track. I need to get back on the bandwagon.

Be more social

Over the past year, I’ve become more and more anxious about social situations. The thought alone of having to make conversation or be around people was enough to give me a full blown panic attack. This isn’t the type of thing you jump straight into, it takes a bunch of small steps and I’m willing to try them, I don’t want to do anything halfway. I want to be able to contribute to conversations again and not have to question what I’ve said or what they’re thinking. I want to be able to do public speaking and debating again, I want my voice back.

Drink more water

People always ask me why I don’t have pimples, and everyone’s expecting me to give them this fancy facial routine and I can’t because I don’t have one. Truth be told, I’m too lazy to come up with one so water has been the one and only thing keeping my skin somewhat under control.

Speaking of skin, Em Ford has this new series, Redefine Pretty which I definitely think is worth a watch. Whether or not, you struggle with finding confidence in your skin the message is super important.

 

Work on my mental health

I have every intention of putting myself first in 2019. “Mental health over every damn thing”.

Write everyday

This comes along with my goal of improving my writing. The thing about blogging, and just writing in general is that they’re a million different ways of doing it and I want to experiment with that. My writing has improved majorly over the past year and that’s solely because I put so much effort into everything that I wrote, and whilst at the time I didn’t do it every day, I have since July and it’s already made such a difference.

It doesn’t always have to be these long flowy paragraphs sometimes it’s just, this is how my day went and that’s okay.

Organise my life

The last time I remember having my life together was January, right after I posted my How to Slay 2018 blog post and then life happened. I want to get back to the point in my life where I had a system that worked for me because that made school and blogging a million times easier. I’ve already kind of decided on the system I’m going to use, I used it back in 2017 when my life was still very busy but having that system made it a lot less chaotic.

Anyway Blogmas is coming up so you’ll be hearing all about that later.

‘Happy things’ journal

I know Jenna Koenig had something similar to a happy things journal except hers was for art. Mine is probably just going to consist of things that make/made my heart happy at some point. I think the main reason I thought of this was because it’s super easy to think of all the bad things in a situation and you never really pay much attention to all the positives and sometimes you just need a reminder.

Start my own K’s journal

My brother has this notebook where he writes all his observations?? I’m 99.9% sure observations isn’t even the right word, anyway, it’s full of quotes and thoughts and the other day I found one in the notes section of my phone. One of the things I loved about reading that note was that I found it at a time when I needed to hear that kind of message, that and it’s kind of like everything he says/thinks comes out sounding deep and philosophical and I love that.

Which is why I wanted to start my own because he wouldn’t let me have his lol. I just think it’ll be really cool to look back on this someday and have this book full of things that I learned/ got me through moments of sadness/chaos.

Rate my mood everyday

I could’ve put this under work on my mental health BUT I tend to forget about this type of thing if it’s not written separately. I’ve been using the app, Pacifica to rate my mood for the past week and it’s helped majorly. Once you’ve filled in your ‘mood entry’ it offers a bunch of suggestions to improve your mood/day, it makes finding the positives in each day so much easier and I can’t recommend it enough.

xxxChips

What are your goals for 2019?

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Lately I’ve Been Thinking…

Okay so recently I was reading this post by Alexandra Jane. And this was a very eye-opening post for me because I related to a lot of the things she talked about. I started Seventeen Wishes because I wanted to meet new people,I wanted to share my thoughts and opinions and have people share their thoughts and feeling with me:I wanted people to interact with.

Lately there’s been something off about Seventeen Wishes and tbh, I hate it.2018 is a new year, another chance for me to redefine what I want for this blog and for me,because this blog is a part of me as much as anything else in my life.


I want to follow people who’s posts I love reading.When I was starting this blog I followed everyone who followed me back regardless of whether or not I liked their content,because I genuinely thought it was just being nice.I’m starting to understand that I would much rather follow people whose posts I like and give them amazing feedback because I mean it.I don’t feel obligated to follow people because they follow me anymore, I spent the day unfollowing a few people because:they deserve better.They deserves followers who engage with them,love their content,smile with them,follow their journey.With the number of people I was following before I couldn’t do that.It was stressful.Now I can, and knowing that despite the fact I had to leave some bloggers on their journey temporarily I still hope for the best for them makes me feel better.


I want to post things you guys actually want to read😂Don’t get me wrong this blog is most definitely for me but I also wanna have stuff that actually interests you😂

You guys really seem to like the posts where I talk about feminism which leads to me rambling about being vegetarian😂But at the end of the day as long as it’s something I’m not clueless about *coughs and mutters makeup*


I want to learn how to take hella cute photos😂I currently have the iPhone 6 and the camera quality on here is amazing which is why I’m gonna try my best to learn more about photography so I can produce better quality photos for you guys😊Like if you guys follow Monika from Destination Humanity you know exactly what I’m talking about when I mean great photos😂SHE SLAYSS MY LIFE😂❤️❤️❤️❤️


I want a theme.A theme that won’t change for a very very long time. I’ve changed my name and my themes several times and even though I’m happy with my blog name☺️I can’t help feeling like my theme is too young and child like but still somewhat perfect for me😂Like, I want a more mature look because despite my savagery(😂😂) I am quite mature for my age but the savage side of me…she needs the childish vibes you know😂😉Any suggestions??


I would also like to follow more bloggers on Instagram and Twitter and Pinterest❤️❤️😂There’s mine,if you’re interested💛

And lastly,even though I’m not entirely sure how:I want to help out new bloggers.I know how scary it can be starting a new blog but for me it was really exciting.Getting 5 likes when I was starting out made me feel INCREDIBLE so I wanna help out new bloggers and maybe that can be my way of giving back to the blogosphere??

Any advice???Any tips,comments or thoughts?Let me know❤️❤️

Come get lost with me

xxxChips💙

2017 IN PICTURES//BLOGMAS

This is it. It’s been a hell of year, no doubt.But as I say goodbye to some of the best memories of my short existence, life carries on. It’s the start of something new, something big is stirring but that doesn’t mean I can’t reminisce about the most unforgettable and wild year so far. So instead of me trying to put my thoughts into words: I’ll show you.

2017 MOODBOARD

THEME FOR THE YEAR: MAKE A SPLASH

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Dont ask about the peach😂😂I know that some of you will get some of the things on here, and others won’t but I don’t wanna explain anything in this post.Every single one of those images represents something so much bigger than the tiny images you see,it’s memories with friends, and feelings, and mood swings, and tears, it’s quotes and goals…but it’s all me.86a0bde67f0696abcf6e7bc0261871b7.jpg

xxxChips

WOULD YOU RATHER|CHRISTMAS EDITION

Blogmas Day 1:

We’re starting off Blogmas with….

WOULD.YOU.RATHER.

But, like, Christmas edition. You can leave your answers below if you wanna share with the fam, but, like, yeah: Let’s get started!

Damn, just when I thought I had the intro thing nailed.

Would you rather…

SIT ON SANTA’S LAP FOR AN HOUR

OR

CHUG A GALLON OF EGGNOG AT ONCE

-Well… I’ve never actually tasted eggnog and I think I would kind of hate myself for chugging something I found gross but with the Santa’s lap for an hour thing, I get bored, really quickly. And kicking Santa wouldn’t exactly put me on the nice list so, I’m gonna have to go with Eggnog!

 

CHRISTMAS TREES FEEL PAIN WHEN YOU CUT THEM DOWN AND WATCH THEM CRY

OR

HAVE CHRISTMAS COOKIES FEEL PAIN WHEN YOU BITE INTO THEM AND HAVE TO LISTEN TO THEM SCREAM

-I actually find this one really funny because today, right before my mum left for her baking class I asked her to bring me some gingerbread men and women and they are absolutely DELICIOUS! With the tree thing, I’m a vegetarian because of my love for the environment and I hate the idea (and yes, I know it sounds stupid) of trees being in pain. Sooo, this is a hard one but I’m going with the cookies.

 

PERMANENT SANTA BEARD 

OR

PERMANENT REINDEER ANTLERS

-ANTLERS ALL THE WAY! Do you people have any idea how itchy, a beard must be! Let alone a beard, that full and luscious and long. I don’t do beards, soz.  

 

HAVE TO LOUDLY SING THE CHORUS OF “JINGLE BELLS” EVERY TIME YOU WALK INTO A ROOM FOR A WEEK

OR

HAVE TO WEAR A SANTA SUIT FOR A WEEK

-The song thing is a bit like the Star Wars thing for me, like if I could have that song I’d be down for dat! 

REACH INTO YOUR STOCKING AND FIND A DEAD MOUSE

OR

REACH INTO YOUR STOCKING A FIND A LIVE MOUSE

-Dudeee, I would rather reach in and find sweets, thank, you, very, much!

 

HAVE TINSEL FOR HAIR

OR

HAVE CHRISTMAS ORNAMENTS FOR FINGERS

TINSEL!!!It’s so much fun to play with,plus I could wack people in the face…

 

ONLY BE ALLOWED TO EAT CANDY CANES FOR TWO DAYS 

OR

ONLY BE ALLOWED TO EAT FUITCAKE FOR TWO DAYS

-Tbh, I hate both of them but if I had to choose I would go with the candy canes because you can throw them at people and it won’t knock them out. Hehehe

 

HAVE A NOSE LIKE RUDOLPH’S

OR

EARS LIKE AN ELF

-Guyysss who wouldn’t want a cute little red nose.

STAR IN HOME ALONE

OR

THE POLAR EXPRESS

-UHH… DUH-Home Alone. I know it sounds weird, lol, most things I say sound weird, but the thought of a bunch of thieves in my house with me playing tricks on them kinda appeals to me…

As always…

xxxChips

Dear Santa, I can explain…