Be A Little ‘Sadder’

Be a little ‘sadder’❤

A Light In The Darkness

Disclaimer: this post could be seen as a bit controversial. I just want to begin by saying that I’m not blaming anyone, I’m simply sharing my experiences and opinions and, as always, feel totally free to comment below if you disagree. I would love to hear your thoughts.

In our society so many positive things are labeled as negatives. Putting effort into something or taking it seriously is seen as ‘lame’ and having a dream and putting all your heart into following it is seen as ‘sad’.

I have had many experiences of people telling me that something I’ve done or made or that something I strongly believe in is ‘cringy’. Who are they to tell me that?

They don’t understand the motivation and dedication it takes to get up and go to work every day of your summer holidays to fund for something you love to do. They don’t…

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REVEALING MY WIP

Heyoo

I’d had this post sitting in my drafts unfinished for a while because I honestly didn’t know what I was doing with my novel but it’s less of a wreck now so I thought I’d share this because I mentioned this sometime last year maybe? I just can’t keep the excitement contained anymore.

I planned on writing this during Nanowrimo but life decided to slap me in the face with exams and I didn’t get to write as much as I wanted to but now that school is closed I’m FREEEEEEE to sleep every day and eat cake write!

Anyway…


🥞What was your inspiration for your novel

☽ Tumblr prompts played a MAJOR part, I’ve always wanted to write a story/novel/i don’t even know what it is at this point but finding a plot has always been something I struggled with.Majorly.

And then I found this page on Tumblr full of prompts that were free for anyone to use and I just elaborated on the prompt and added a bunch of my own stuff that I’d been wanting to use from the other times I’d attempted writing a story.* And then I just kept adding stuff until it wasn’t even remotely similar to the original prompt and now I have this self-made mess that I’m trying to wrap my head around.

I’ve been wanting to write this since…umm?? March? January? My memory has always been atrocious lol

*roughly 4 million but who’s counting

🥞Describe what your novel is about!

I haven’t actually, fully thought that through yet *laughs nervously*. I have a basic and I mean BASIC outline, and like two character names; this is very much a work in progress.

I will however, say this, and this like ALL I have so far

        • a girl who gets shipped off to another state/city … after a suicide attempt
        • a bad boy (because it wouldn’t be a good cliche story without one)
        • should i reveal more??
        • nahhhh
        • Just one more…
        • MC’s name is Cassidy

🥞What is your book’s aesthetic?

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Introduce us to each of your characters!

☽Cassidy

-17

– blunt

-Spanish

– has depression???

– protective

– (she/her)

-extroverted

☽Dakota

-18

-badboy

-loyal

-honest

– observative

-(he/his)

🥞How do you prepare to write?

Outlining really helps. I started with using Cait’s How To Outline Your Novel (Without Biting Your Own Head Off) and then made a board on the app, Trello with all the little bits and pieces I wanted in the story and then moved them around until I had a “timeline”. But the abundance of chocolate hidden around the house helps too.

🥞What are you most looking forward to about this novel?

Finishing it. Don’t get me wrong writing is fun but it’s a lot I’ve literally only written a chapters but I have never felt such a level of complete and utter exhaustion. No amount of cake could’ve prepared me for this. I’m really excited to see where writing this takes me, I’ve never written a story before and I’m Nano newbie so everything about this is new and exciting for me

🥞List 3 things about your novel’s setting.

-San Diego

-Possibly Manhattan

-I know nothing else

🥞What’s your character’s goal and who (or what) stands in the way?

Happiness.

Self sabotaging

Flynn

🥞How does your protagonist change by the end of the novel?

I still have no idea how my novel ends but by the end I want her to grow as much as I feel I have over the past few years. I want her to have the hope, I sadly lack more times than I’d care to admit. And I want her to be happy and confident and love herself flaws and all.

🥞Book themes!?

Accepting the past? Learning to move on? Death? Finding love in unexpected places?

🥞Snippets

But just one…

I guess that’s it for now. Did any of you participate in Nanowrimo?

xxxChips

what to do when you lose motivation to blog|blogmas 2018

🌤ted talks

 

🌤read other blogs

This helps you figure out what kind of content you like reading and are more likely to enjoy writing, it’s kind of like a pick and mix at a sweet shop, at the end of the day the key thing to remember is that your blog is yours. You don’t have to stay stuck doing the same thing forever. If you don’t like something: change it. If something doesn’t interest you:change it. And if you find something that does: make it yours.

🌤make a Pinterest board of how you envision your blog and fill it with anything that catches your eye

 

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Are we friends on Pinterest?

🌤redesign your blog/ start a new one

If you’ve been following my blogging journey for a while you know exactly how often I’ve changed my theme in the past. Sometimes giving your blog a new look is exactly what you need and if that doesn’t work you can always start a new one for all your I’m-not-to-sure-what-I’m-doing posts until you figure out what you’re passionate about.

🌤redefine your goals

A lot of times the reason we lose motivation is because our goals don’t align with what we want at the moment, take some time to reassess what you want.

🌤take a break

Say goodbye to blogging for a bit. For some this is scary because there’s always that fear of what if I lose all my engagement once I’m back but I definitely think it’s necessary to take a break from blogging at least a few times during your blogging journey to avoid burnout and spend some time focused solely on yourself.

xxxChips

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my 2019 goals|blogmas 2018

It wouldn’t take a genius to figure out that his year hadn’t gone the way I wanted it to. For the longest time I stopped trying, I just…didn’t see the point in anything.

Starting the year off that way, I feel, was the reason the rest of the year more or less continued to be filled with a lot of sadness and more-than-occasional self loathing. But I can’t pretend the year was all that horrible. I made new friends, stayed in touch with a few of my old ones, watched my best friend’s dream of writing a series come true and had the honor of having my name be in the dedication. I travelled, ate a corn dog for the first time, hit a major blogging goal of mine and opened up more on here.

There have been high highs and incredibly low lows but overall I’m not as happy as I want to be. And if there’s one thing I’ve learned it’s that sometimes happiness is a decision. There are bad days, that’s normal, but the only way you get past that is by actively trying to create some sort of change,and that’s exactly what I’m trying to do.

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a list of things i will achieve in 2019

Listen to new music

Music has always had a major impact on me. Recently, my sister and I were having a conversation about mental health and our lives and one of the things that came up was how changing the music she listened to impacted her happiness. To summarize what she said it was something along the lines of ‘it’s comforting to listen to ‘sad’ music but at the end of the day nothing changes, it’s just you listening to the same music and you’re just replaying the same sad events over and over again for months’ and that made perfect sense to me.

In 2019, I intend to say goodbye to some of the songs I used to listen to, in hopes that if I stop replaying the past I can make a future for myself that makes my heart happy.

Join a sports team

One of my major goals for 2019 is to get my health at a good place. I spent a bunch of time in and out of hospital being treated for anemia and it was the most frustrating thing ever. Mainly because I was too weak to do a lot of things. I stopped doing sport at the beginning of April, as some of you may know I ended up in a mental health facility or to put it bluntly, rehab. For some reason I just haven’t been able to get back into being active again. I stopped exercising completely, which is why I figure the best way to start is at full speed.

Friday 6PM

If you haven’t already seen my post about this super exciting, super special, super important blogging series I’m starting in 2019, you should.

I just…

I want to give this my all. I want to make myself proud, and make you proud, and start a conversation, and help people, maybe even be part of the reason they decid

Invest in my future

Save. Save. Save.

Learn Russian

I think I’ve said this before, nope, I definitely have but I’ve wanted to go to Russia since I was 3 years old. That hasn’t changed. In fact, I probably want to go more now, than I ever have before. I’ve been learning Russian for the past few months but in between school and life, I’ve completely fallen off track. I need to get back on the bandwagon.

Be more social

Over the past year, I’ve become more and more anxious about social situations. The thought alone of having to make conversation or be around people was enough to give me a full blown panic attack. This isn’t the type of thing you jump straight into, it takes a bunch of small steps and I’m willing to try them, I don’t want to do anything halfway. I want to be able to contribute to conversations again and not have to question what I’ve said or what they’re thinking. I want to be able to do public speaking and debating again, I want my voice back.

Drink more water

People always ask me why I don’t have pimples, and everyone’s expecting me to give them this fancy facial routine and I can’t because I don’t have one. Truth be told, I’m too lazy to come up with one so water has been the one and only thing keeping my skin somewhat under control.

Speaking of skin, Em Ford has this new series, Redefine Pretty which I definitely think is worth a watch. Whether or not, you struggle with finding confidence in your skin the message is super important.

 

Work on my mental health

I have every intention of putting myself first in 2019. “Mental health over every damn thing”.

Write everyday

This comes along with my goal of improving my writing. The thing about blogging, and just writing in general is that they’re a million different ways of doing it and I want to experiment with that. My writing has improved majorly over the past year and that’s solely because I put so much effort into everything that I wrote, and whilst at the time I didn’t do it every day, I have since July and it’s already made such a difference.

It doesn’t always have to be these long flowy paragraphs sometimes it’s just, this is how my day went and that’s okay.

Organise my life

The last time I remember having my life together was January, right after I posted my How to Slay 2018 blog post and then life happened. I want to get back to the point in my life where I had a system that worked for me because that made school and blogging a million times easier. I’ve already kind of decided on the system I’m going to use, I used it back in 2017 when my life was still very busy but having that system made it a lot less chaotic.

Anyway Blogmas is coming up so you’ll be hearing all about that later.

‘Happy things’ journal

I know Jenna Koenig had something similar to a happy things journal except hers was for art. Mine is probably just going to consist of things that make/made my heart happy at some point. I think the main reason I thought of this was because it’s super easy to think of all the bad things in a situation and you never really pay much attention to all the positives and sometimes you just need a reminder.

Start my own K’s journal

My brother has this notebook where he writes all his observations?? I’m 99.9% sure observations isn’t even the right word, anyway, it’s full of quotes and thoughts and the other day I found one in the notes section of my phone. One of the things I loved about reading that note was that I found it at a time when I needed to hear that kind of message, that and it’s kind of like everything he says/thinks comes out sounding deep and philosophical and I love that.

Which is why I wanted to start my own because he wouldn’t let me have his lol. I just think it’ll be really cool to look back on this someday and have this book full of things that I learned/ got me through moments of sadness/chaos.

Rate my mood everyday

I could’ve put this under work on my mental health BUT I tend to forget about this type of thing if it’s not written separately. I’ve been using the app, Pacifica to rate my mood for the past week and it’s helped majorly. Once you’ve filled in your ‘mood entry’ it offers a bunch of suggestions to improve your mood/day, it makes finding the positives in each day so much easier and I can’t recommend it enough.

xxxChips

What are your goals for 2019?

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